An Algorithm for Hate

when i want to be want to be
strong
i hate myself

and

when I want to be
strong
I love myself

no one strokes me better
or
hurts me worse

I give the best hand jobs
and
I can cut a little deeper than the rest

weakness is when
you need
to be loved
or
want
to be hated

but….I am weak

mostly weak

so the thought occurs

If someone loves you,
they have extended your power
in that all of your lover’s knowledge, well-being and opportunity are open to you;

but if someone dislikes you or does not love you,
unless they are very powerful or crazy,
they cannot hurt you with actions but only with words

Hence one has much to gain from being loved
and little if nothing to lose from not being loved.

It takes a lot of crazy powerful hate to meet necks with
even the distant love of an acquaintance.